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so i haven't used this in forever and i don't know if anyone even reads this blog anymore but i just need to rant somewhere pseudoanonymously so suck my dick

Tue, 01 Nov 2011 21:23:00 -0500

i literally don’t know what to do. i hate my school and i have no friends and i cry like every day and no one in my family believes me or understands me and i just know they won’t let me switch because we can’t afford it and my reasons are “stupid~”

yeah, i want to switch schools because i have no friends. i want to be closer to jonathan because he’s the only person that makes me even remotely happy.

why is that such a bad thing?

why is it bad for me to be happy? why is it bad for me to miss my friends? jonathan and kathleen and rachel and chelsea and i don’t even care that i’m using their real names who gives a fuck? they’re not variables, they’re people.

i miss him so much it hurts. fuck. fuck. fuck fuck fuck fuck i hate this. i don’t know what to do with myself and i forget how to function and i’m always distracted and it’s scary. i almost hit someone with my car last week.

awesome. this is super safe.

i don’t know what i want to do with my life. i just want to be able to make enough money to support a family and i want to be happy.

h a p p y

why is this so hard for me?

i came here for all the wrong reasons - but i guess i didn’t really have any right reasons for anything else. i wanted chicago, i wanted freedom, i wanted a new life and i wanted to change. that didn’t happen. they wouldn’t let me. i decided i didn’t care where i ended up so i just went where they wanted me to go. i’m a legacy kid and it sucks. that’s part of the reason it’s going to be almost impossible for me to leave. they tried to get me to go here for like my entire life and i always said no no no but they won - like i’m sure they knew they would - and now they’re never going to let me leave. i’m going to end up a failure just like the rest of my generation.

the robertsons are the only ones that know how to raise their kids right, apparently.

i can’t do this. i don’t know how to do this anymore.

but i have to.

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

i just want to be done with this, i want to be out of here. the only thing i can ever think of to say is that i want to go home, but i don’t even have that anymore.

my home is just a house full of boxes and no people - my parents live out of a suitcase. i guess this room should feel like home to me by now but it doesn’t and i don’t think it ever will. the only place i want to be is where jonathan is but i can’t be there right now and i hate it.

i never thought college would hurt this much.

I love you, but you make me cry every single day. It isn’t because you’re mean, selfish, or...

Tue, 30 Aug 2011 11:17:00 -0500

I love you, but you make me cry every single day. It isn’t because you’re mean, selfish, or hateful—you could never be any of those things, even if you tried. It’s because I need you and you’re just not here. We spent almost every day together in the summer, you would tell me how much you loved me and I would twist my fingers through your hair. It was perfect and eternal, but somehow summer ended. I never dreamed that one hundred miles would feel like one hundred years. I miss you so much it hurts.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder, fondness makes the absence longer—but I’m afraid length is losing your interest.

I’m a realist. I’m insatiable.

I’m so afraid that you’ll get tired of me—people always do. Eventually they discover that I’m bossy and selfish and not nearly as charming as they thought I was. They always leave me, but you promised you never would. “Have I ever broken a promise to you?” No, but I’m still terrified, so I swear up and down that there’s nothing wrong even when I’m sobbing with my face buried in a pillow. You’re not lame, you’re not a bad boyfriend—actually, you’re the best—I just hate having to compete for your attention. I get so lonely and there’s nothing I can do about it because I’m afraid to tell you. I’m afraid I’ll do something wrong and mess everything up.

I’ve invested so much in this relationship—sleepless nights, guitar strings, holidays, virginity, my class ring, hours upon hours upon hours of driving, and myself—that I can’t imagine what I would do if something went wrong. I would be utterly lost without you.

I will never let you go.

you guys should follow my new blog

Tue, 14 Jun 2011 15:19:16 -0500

you guys should follow my new blog:

i mean i’ll probs still post on here sometimes but this one is going to be my i-am-not-embarrassed-to-show-to-real-life-friends blog. hahahaha okay? follow me plz :/

so we got my car fixed

Fri, 10 Jun 2011 13:09:00 -0500

it was way too expensive (read as: 500 dollars~) but i think it’s legit fixed. like we took it to 239857398 places and everyone was like THARS NOTHIN RONG W/ IT and i was like bitch please it should not have seizures and die and they’re just like LOL IDK

so we took it to a dealership and they fixed it

fuck yeah

perfectlyadequateblogger: Does this outfit look stupid for a...

Thu, 09 Jun 2011 22:00:51 -0500

perfectlyadequateblogger:

Does this outfit look stupid for a first date h e l p

NOOO IT’S CUTE I LIKE IT

WTF TUMBLR YOU ARE A MONSTER

Thu, 09 Jun 2011 21:51:01 -0500

WTF TUMBLR

YOU ARE A MONSTER

Reblog if you still overuse the phrase "that's what she said"

Tue, 07 Jun 2011 23:28:27 -0500

andrealessi:

Define “overuse”.

HAHAHAHAHA this is my life

i think i like this theme but i can’t decide yet o well

Mon, 06 Jun 2011 21:57:17 -0500

i think i like this theme

but i can’t decide yet

o well

Photo

Mon, 06 Jun 2011 21:56:55 -0500

i absolutely hate changing my theme. but the ask button doesn’t show up in the one i had...

Mon, 06 Jun 2011 21:48:24 -0500

i absolutely hate changing my theme.

but the ask button doesn’t show up in the one i had before.

ughhh h8 lyf

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE INANIMATE OBJECT?

Mon, 06 Jun 2011 21:42:15 -0500

WHY ARE YOU ASKING ME QUESTIONS TUMBLR I DO NOT UNDERSTAND HOW THIS WORKS

ASK ME THESE QUESTIONS

Mon, 06 Jun 2011 21:40:50 -0500

ASK ME THESE QUESTIONS:

The person I like and why I like them
A famous person Ive been compared to
5 things that irritate me about the same/opposite sex
The best thing that has happened to me this week
Weird things I do when Im alone
How Id spend ten thousand bucks
Things I like and things I dont like about the way I look
My last night out in detail
Something that makes me sad when I think about it
Something Ive lied about
Would I rather be stranded on a desert island with someone I love for ten years or someone I hate for a month? Explain why
Something Im currently worrying about
One person from Tumblr Id throw off a cliff, one Id marry and one Id fuck
Something I do without realizing
Lyrics that apply to my current situation/mood
A drunken story
Something I regret
To do list
Post a picture of myself
My longest relationship and who it was with
Press Ctrl V and post
Post a bit of my last IM convo
5 things I want to change
My view on being Tumblr Famous
Someone Id like to be for a day and why
5 things within touching distance
Story of my first kiss
An embarrassing/socially awkward situation Ive found myself in
Something Im not proud of
The last argument I had

billie-joe: if-weburn: patriotsaint: brendonurieistoogaytofunc...

Mon, 06 Jun 2011 15:15:26 -0500

billie-joe:

if-weburn:

patriotsaint:

brendonurieistoogaytofunction:

a-n-a-t-o-m-y:

50 State Stereotypes

IDAHO LOL

omg this is gr8

ahaha Texas is too accurate

TEXAS

“People care about us at election time…!” bkjfnjfgb

WOOOO NUMBER ONE IN METH

The Hangover - Stu’s SongWhat do tigers dreams ofWhen they take...

Fri, 03 Jun 2011 00:39:31 -0500

The Hangover - Stu’s Song

What do tigers dreams of
When they take a little tiger snooze?
Do they dream of mauling zebras?
Or Hallie Barry in her catwoman suit?

Don’t you worry your pretty striped head
Were gonna get you back to Tyson and your cozy tiger bed
And then we’re gonna find our best friend Doug
And then we’re gonna give him a best friend hug
Doug Doug Oh Doug Doug Dougie Doug Doug

But if he’s been murdered by crystal meth tweakers…
Then we’re shit out of luck.

gpoy

Fri, 03 Jun 2011 00:32:18 -0500

gpoy

Photo

Fri, 03 Jun 2011 00:29:34 -0500

The 14th GIF in your folder is your sexy face.

Fri, 03 Jun 2011 00:28:13 -0500

catrickstump:

marisarael:

citylightsarehopelessforyou:

heartachetoscream:

killjoysunshine:

ftwgifs:

DOOD.

why are mine always so disappointed? :/

she doesn't hate me anymore

Thu, 02 Jun 2011 20:06:38 -0500

baby (formerly known as vr for any of you who care enough to keep tabs on my life hahahahaha as if) doesn’t hate me.

i think we’re going to be friends again.

seriously how is this possible it actually feels like things are going right in my life i am so happy what the motherfucking fuck?

jon is picking me up soon. i think we’re going to go over to his house and watch firefly.

lol. lol. lol.

dorks 4 lyf. <3

story-that-you-don't-care-about time

Tue, 31 May 2011 23:22:03 -0500

i had a fight with my mom.

jon took me out for ice cream and told me he loved me.

klaineexists: -charmander: gleegasm: -charmander: fuckyeahsim...

Tue, 31 May 2011 23:20:14 -0500

klaineexists:

-charmander:

gleegasm:

-charmander:

fuckyeahsimsmeme:

Well, this is kinda complicated. My friend and I uploaded this freaky sex stuff to my Sims, for example, the sex rug that is present in this photo. So I put the rug in a random room next to a fireplace ‘cause i wanted to check it out, and as they’re doing some freaky position on it, they catch on fire from the fireplace… and uh, that was the weirdest thing I’ve ever experienced through Sims.

OH MY FUCKING GOD

THAT AWKWARD MOMENT YOU START HITTING ON THE FIREMAN.

YOOOOOOOUUUUUU YOUR SEX IS ON FIIIIREEEE

^^

OMG WHAT IS AIR I CANNOT BREATHE